There's nothing between you and your dreams...

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cos there's nothing between you and your dreams.

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath is harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries

xxx

no boundaries

Everything's okay in the end

If it's not okay, it's not the end

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I hate change

Saturday, November 28, 2009 12:33 AM

I hate change. I do.
How everyone changes and you're stuck on the outside wondering where you went wrong. And how a change in time place or synergy can make you leave the ones you love.

I hate how when you change one note in the song, it'll never sound the same. Every pulse every reverberation must be the same. Or else it cannot be called the same. It won't be a symphony anymore it'd just be noise. Not music.

And that's what you say when the world you've grown to love as it is changes for the worse. And when it changes for the better, you embrace it.

That's what we humans are, hypocrites. That's the only thing that's not going to change.
I hate change. I do. Most of all,
I hate how you've changed.

Music again

Friday, November 27, 2009 11:39 PM

It's soo exciting that so many albums coming out soon... Like Adam's ! And Westlife's!

I mean controversial crap aside, he said it himself, he's not a babysitter, he's a performer. And yeah, it was overboard.. And I was screaming fallacy! fallacy! the whole time he was giving the early show interview.. Hahah. But he can do both, be ultimatum over-the-top and give a decent performance without doing extreme stuff.

The album is a grower, not a first-listen for sure.. Right now, I'm crazy over Whataya want from Me and Music Again.. For Your Entertainment maybee and If I Had You.. Hahaha I love the first verse..

So I got my boots on, got the right amount of leather. So I'm doing me up with a black coloured liner, And I'm working my strut but I know it don't matter.

HAHAH first song I've seen and actually liked about eyeliner! Hahah reminded me of adam, danny and joe all at once! I think Adam's post-idol sound is starting to sound like a britney spears that can actually sing :O its disturbing.. especially FYE and If I Had You.. And Music Again sounds kinda Mika-ish.. Fever sounds My Chem techno-ed up.. the angst is the same..But I guess from the F-f-fever you can tell its a Gaga track luh.. P-p-p-poker.. All same thing one. And Sleepwalker is beautiful but its a Ryan Tedder and OBVIOUS One-Republic sounding... broken open is nice too... that and soaked sound nice and Mad World ish and theatre! AWESOME! :) But I don't quite like how if you listen to samples, at least 50% of the album has got this techno-rock sound but ohwells.. like I said its a grower.. And some of the songs are an assured flop if someone like, say miley cyrus sang it -.- But adam's voice made them pull through. Ohh of course, the ultimate fav adam lambert song? Time for Miracles and No Boundaries!!!

How can you not love time for miracles? Okay yeah I was sobbing pathetically during 2012, but the ending credits were epiccc with adam's voice mann! :)

Tiny minded twotone suckers, same old faces make me shudder, Countless times I've screamed Oh Brother Where are you? I need someone to be my lover..

For your entertainment

Monday, November 23, 2009 4:02 PM

Baby you know that, maybe its time for a miracle..
Cos Adam Lambert's AMA performance was wayyy over the PG-13 rating! :O

And two days to the album, so I really hope this is not like badd publicity of some sort! It was way too theatre-musical ish for the AMAs I think, that is the primary problem. It was probably the most s*xual performance of the night more than anything! I mean whutt was with the kissing the guy on stage and practically sticking the girls face there? like I mean There. GROSSSS MAN!
I'm still a huge fan but ughhhh..

Watched a few Adam videos, like the KISSFM interview and the American Music Awards Interview! And the rehearsals for the performance. His sound check was freaking amazing luh compared to the performance. You've got such an amazing voice, why go and spoil it! :( But the interviews are wayy hilarious. He told one guy who promised that he had his back on the red carpet, to bring the nailpolish! And that performance was gonna be shiny, and glittery! LOL

I've been working my butt off, we've been recording like everyday, lots of meeting, lots of things to take into account. But I... I'm so excited, I couldn't be happier! This is like, this is like dress up, it's fun! I'm getting to play Rockstar! It's so much fun! *giggles*
- Adam Lambert

Okie okie enough Lambert talk. hahah. Had guitar today from 9to12.. Sian-ness man. I WANT MS GOH BACK :( hahah watching adam interviews reminded me of her.. the way they both laugh..

Grr more emails to send.. after all that rs emailing I'm quite sick of emails. I think I email too much :( Cos my teachers' label has at least 60 conversations, excluding guitar ones. And conversations can have emails from like 2-6 :O uh-oh

Man, facebook hacks are interesting man.. eheheh

i loved you forever

Saturday, November 21, 2009 1:50 AM

Hello worlddd!

I'm so freaking relieved! Swear to god, a smiley hasn't made me this relieved in a lifetime :) YAY! Hahah ____ doesn't hate me anymore! :D PHEW man! I swear I couldn't watch those vids anymore, it was so ughh and I had no idea how I was going to face that person anymore man! Life lessons man.. I know that some people are avoiding me and probably bitching behind my back my now but I don't care, as long as I know I'm not to blame whatsoever. If you're getting so damn worked up try asking yourself why? Is it because you've done something entirely unacceptable?

Anw, went photo browsing on fb hahahah So many pics! And the seniors look gorgeous :) Aww man, i cannot believe we'd be the ones in prom next year :( So scaryy! I don't wanna leave rgs, don't know what I'd do out there on my own :'( But yes I realise photo spamming is a pre requisite of prom! LOL must must take lots of pictures, despite the unglamness factor! :O And w/teachers too! It's the very last time you'd get the chance to (1) take pics with them (2) upkeep some standards of glamness! Just realised that I havent been doing enough of either :( Talk about lame new year resolutions! Hahah

Just realised that This I Promise You is such a beautiful song. Fell in love with it at Talent Vogue (: It's very very sweet too.. There I go in boyband mood again, CANNOT believe im saying this about nsync

Ohh ohh...

When the visions around you,

Bring tears to your eyes

And all that surround you,

Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength,

I'll give you hope,

Keeping your faith when it's gone

The one you should call,

Was standing here all along..

And I will take

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you

I've loved you forever,

In lifetimes before

And I promise you never...

Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word

I give you my heart (give you my heart)

This is a battle we've won

And with this vow,

Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)

Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)

When I hear you call

Without you in my life baby

I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes

Each loving day (each loving day)

I know this feeling won't go away (no..)

Every word I say is true

This I promise you

Every word I say is true

This I promise you

Ooh, I promise you...

Made me think of something again... ArtsFest ♥

PISSED

Thursday, November 19, 2009 11:07 PM

I'm feeling pissed off.

VERY pissed off.

Why does everything have to be wreaking havoc on my life?

:'(

Will you be there?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 12:16 AM

Had a terrible day today, and I realised that its stressful situations where true friendships, care and affection do come through. I think I'm finally learning to count my blessings and see how lucky I really am..

Thank you to all the people especially my parents who've tolerated my nonsense all these years. THANKS Vicky for listening to all my rants and what not. I love you loads and I owe you one.

See ya tomorrow for our 2012 date! HAHAH.

In My Darkest Hour
In My Deepest Despair
Will You Still Care?
Will You Be There?
In My Trials
And My Tribulations
Through Our Doubts
And Frustrations
In My Violence
In My Turbulence
Through My Fear
And My Confessions
In My Anguish And My Pain
Through My Joy And My Sorrow
In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.

I believe

Saturday, November 14, 2009 7:44 PM

Today's my official 'can use the com the whole day ;)' So guess what I'm doing? Using the com :)

Watched Charis' parents' video of our performance last night and started crying tears of joy and pride and just tears.. hahah. There we go again. :) Just spammed some dude for accusing rgge of FAILING and using alto guitars to play chords. We're not that stupid luh friend. Get your facts straight -.- Went on a googling spree and googled arts fest and guitar like crazy! And googled teachers band too!! I think mr jtoh has an interesting influx of posts following that performance. Must've been phenomenal and he must be happy HAHAH. Makes me jealous luh, not that I don't have enough posts about me :P That I couldnt watch. Currently transferring t-band videos from vicky :D And skype is taking between 2-5 hours.. So here I am still holding on :P Telling myself, patience is a virtue -.- But people can be so very mean, one person talking about he wriggles shamelessly on stage and is unbelievably gay and all.. AND PUT HIS NAME SOMEMORE. I cried when I read that! I mean come on, you have your opinions but there should be a threshold to which such things can be tolerated! :(( Called me biased or blinded or fangirling or whatever luh, its basic manners please! :(

Just rang up the radio to dedicate no boundaries to rg guitar, artsfest people, teachers and all. I realised that it fits perfectly.. I mean look at this

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Here I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am still holding on
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

That's exactly what artsfest is.. You put in so much effort, you spend forever rehearsing, you're filled with self doubt whether you're up to par or not.. and you wonder what is it that makes you not wanna give up..

I think this artsfest has taught me really a lot of lessons, not just about organization or performing but about life. After all that was said and done, the first thing I thought of was the very first positive comment anyone ever told me about arts fest.. "I'm sure Arts Fest is a rewarding and fun experience, so the practices are worthwhile," in an email from Mr Toh and how I reacted to it at that point in time. I was so skeptical, but gosh was he right... Thanks Mr Toh.. And it was then that I started believing.. that there was this thing called fate, and that there was this thing called faith. And another called self-belief...

p.s. i love you

2:27 AM

ARTS FEST IS AWESOMEEE..

The experience, well i mean i really did shed blood, sweat and tears into all this.. We all did. Personally for me, shed more tears than I would have liked to but in the end it was all so amazing.

Since I never got to say it, let me recap all that happened over the past two days, if I can remember that is.

So here goes, on November 12th 2009, at 0000hrs, I was up packing stuff and tagging photo orders for seniors and thinking ohmygod the day is finally here. Still can't believe it. And I STILL want to go for teachers band damn it. Went to school around 0650 and started looking for seniors. Found Wen Yan and whined to her for a while. Saw Grace Keoy a few. Saw Teachers Band like a million times, and I felt like kicking myself for being in artsfest and missing the No Boundaries performance he was gonna do that day. Started running around to get the Guitar Room key. Got all the stuff in and went to gym. Started looking for juniors and figuring who wasn't around. Got stuck singing the national anthem in the track cos of that. It was quite hilarious actually cos there were people all around the track looking like we were getting ready for a baton passing race. Felt so bloody stressed, sticky and sweaty in the gym waiting for further instructions. And Maria lost her guitar and got scolded.. I was so pissed off i tell you, I mean after all we had put into this, regardless of the outcome I didnt want anyone that I loved to be put in this condition. Cos we slogged our asses off these past weeks. Buses were delayed majorly cos they were having assembly in the parade square and buses couldn't enter. So we exited through the athena gate, sucking on ice pops from Ms Seah and the buses turned out of school, just as an excited school population scurried towards the hall.. That was really too much for me luh, cos I really REALLY wanted to be over there. And I was thinking, what on earth did I do to be stuck here, why can't I be over there.

But man I'm telling you, it was just a matter of time before all that changed. I don't know how it happened even till now. We had rehearsals, sound checks and lights where we met Ms Ruth Ling the AWESOME, ohmygee I still cannot believe how amazingly down to earth, funky and cool she is after having achieved so much! We were backstage giving the AVPA hell cos we had to spin the guitars and couldn't have clip ons taped to us. We really owe you guys one for helping us so muchh! :) Thank goodness they got it sorted with Ms Ling and all... I was shaking on stage cos for one, it was damn cold and besides, they miked up the guitaron and the moment I plucked one note it started going BOOMZ! Hahahah I was so nervous that it sounded crappy or that I wouldn't sound good until she walked over and told me 'That thing sounds awesome. I love it man! I'm very happy!" That one comment made me want to have the confidence, to do this and get it right. I mean sometimes, even if it may hurt when the people whom you would think would appreciate you don't appreciate you, but the people whom you least expect would actually think you matter the slightest bit. Makes you feel like you're on top of the world. And then Ms Khoo started getting all intrigued by it. Hahah. Then we went on for lunch and second set of rehearsals which were slightly better than the first. At this point in time, I was sitting there thinking, okay maybe this is not so bad after all, even though I'd really like to watch T-band? HAHAH. Yes I'm a hugeeee fan I admit it :) After they had us take a nap and do makeup and all.. And then it happened. I don't know how, why or what. I only know who.. and yes you, rgge, I love yall forever.

We all started getting so damn high! Singing songs, jamming doing crazy things, playing games. And then I realised what it meant to be, to know where you belong, for once in my life I did.

Okay the songs, even if I looked like I was pissed off, no I wasn't it just fairly amusing to have 30-odd people singing songs about you HAHAHAH. Flattering much? Lets see we had Abi loves pink forever, No Abi No Abi but You, In your head (Abi), Abi girl (instead of barbie girl), We will we will Chua you and all sorts of stuff. And people were getting high over them and videoing them to put on fb and doing funny things. I was knighted the Abi Lambert of guitar, cos of the poofy hairdo after Ms Seah gelled it. Courtesy of Maria, RachYo, Cheng Jing and the lot of them. We were so freaking hyper before going on stage, taking photos and camwhoring, and screaming for the tiniest reasons. Taking photos with Ms Goh and ringers And when we went on stage we were really smiling, from our hearts. Au naturale.

I guess when you're happy everything falls perfectly in place. Its the way you see things. We went on stage and worked it man. It was so amazing that we sounded that good (: Selina was high too :D And we looked so happy. We went back feeling so damn good, and Ms Goh was being so sweet and hyper and all! She wore green eyeshadow for us! ;) Even ms seah was nice to us and she told us that she forgot herself and cheered for us after the performance :D And Ringers were so crazily wacky too! :D Ringers + Guitar; the personality uh same to same hahahah :) And for finale we had lightstix and all, and people went crazyyyy afterwards. So we all went home and I got yelled at majorly for screwing my phone battery and started crying on the bus which was malu cos I was a BRIGHT GREEN, CRYING TEENAGER in ALIEN GREEN makeup. HAH. But I couldn't sleep till 3am! Was so freaking hyper!

Ahahah.. Day 2 was quite slack luh.. Went to school around 10.40 today and started looking for seniors and stuff. Walked around sec4 busking booths for a while! So cool! And then went to accompany Vicky to find her camera and look for Mr d. Then we all got shipped off too UCC.

And we had lunch.. HAHAH. Sounds anticlimax right? ohwells.. and then we had to go for debrief and all, dress rehearsal. And then routine from yesterday. Gel hair, poke hair, put makeup, check hair again, camwhore, eat something, put more make up, camwhore somemore, delete unglam pics, start going crazy, go on stage, ROCK it out, go even CRAZIER, pack stuff up and go home... And there's a lot more to it than that.. =)

The pre-show was a lot less hyper besides the putting on makeup and camwhoring. I let RachYo and Alagu straighten my hair hahaha. Quite glam actually. Second time in my life that I did it :) And they started combing it like I was some barbie doll or something. HAHAH and then we had more fun, more songs like Spongebob squarepants in my name. Somehow. HAHAH. and then we went on stage, slightly less hyper than yesterday.. We managed to figure out I Don't Love You and all though. AND JAM ON GUITARON! Cheena song AND VIVA LA VIDA!! ON GUITARON! I bet no one's though of that before! HAHAH Yeah man! :D Before that, Ms Goh came in one last time to say thankyou for letting her have the opp to work with us and made a very sweet touching speech. And both of us, me and rachel wanted to cry. I did in the end :( She gave us THREE cakes from awfully chocolate!! One read, 'Bravo rgge', '=)' and 'Thank you' AHHHHHH! :( People actually laughed at our hey-yeah, and started clapping for the spin guitars thing! :D :D :D IT WORKED MAN! HAHAHAHAH. I was so happy! :) We thought yesterday was better when we got back to the dressing room cos Mr chua said it was only okay, but nonetheless were so-so happy. AND THEN ms goh told us, girls did you know someone shouted bravo from the audience. And no, it wasn't me! AHAHAHAHAH It was epic I tell you. We were so happyyyyyyyyyyy! :D Then cut cake and lick cake and people (rachel licked me :O) and went to deliver Ms Goh a slice. She kept going no its okay i just had i just had. So I said ms goh you must share our happiness! And rachel and I started persuading her and she said awww okay! hahahah And then charmaine came along and looked at the cake in her hand, so ms goh covered it with her palm and said 'mineeee.. ' and started laughing in her crazy way! I LOVE her laugh! its so contagious! :) And ms goh told us to hold it together for ensem and all. And took pics with us. Really really gonna miss her! and Ringers too! :'( Dont wanna go back to stupid braddell westlake. The whole time afterwards I was going OMG I LOVE MS GOH! HAHAHAH. I do! Platonically duh! But she's probably the best thing that happened to us this artsfest and we're so very grateful to have her around :) Where was I? ohyeah then we had to go for finale and the audience was going crazy when they turned out the lights during amigos and the light stix were around. I still love my wolverine one :D HAHAHAH And then the 130 balloons dropped down from UCC and they started throwing them toward us. Ms Rani Singam is SO hyper too! She sang school song with so much gusto it was inspiring! :) And rafflescheers were awesomezx man! It was probably suchh a kodak moment to have a shot of the fists in the air at the end of Unite, gave me goosebumps.. Got flowers from a bunch of people, hahahah thats like a halfpun :P Thanks Mr De Souza & Vicky! although the dressing room scene caused me quite a lot of teasing ._. hahahah And guitar seniors!!! :D Doesn't matter if the rose is frayed xin min, its the thought that counts :)

[Update/151109]: OMG TEACHERS BAND IS DAMN AWESOME MAN! Just watched vicky's videos of the entire show! :D MR NUH'S GUITAR SOLO IS AMAZINGGG MAN! Ohmygoshh! I never knew he was THAT pro! :) HAHAH AND MY MOM THINKS NOBODY SOUNDED SPANISH! I think it was english right! HAHAH But oh whatever, the dancing uh, ultra-cute man! I think they just beat wondergirls! HAHAHAH.. The layered chorus and the whoa oh oh things are super nice! :) AND OMG mr josephtoh's vocals at the bridge and last chorus of no boundaries was crazy awesome! :) We've got the awesomest teachers in RG EVER!